What's the use?

&; Multiple times.

Yawns. So, some small information: I decided to clear my tagboard away cause I feel vry pathetic without tags for a very long time. I doubt anyone is even reacing my blog. So yeah.

Last Friday[16.04.10]: @ Joel's house. Completely fun.
Last Saturday[17.04.10]: @ Scrabble Competition. Completely nerve wrecking, though my team did win all 3 rounds each, which adds up to 15 wins.
Yesterday[22.04.10]: @ Chinese. Test. @ Physics. Test. @ Guides. I and Eileen can't do drills cause of eczema, so we went to the Haven to pack up a little then settle down to do homework. Then it started raining heavily, even when I was waiting to take 300. And this time, 300 took a freaking long time to arrive, and I was drenched.
Today[23.04.10]: @ Social Studies. Like usual, boring. @ Physics. Mr Nicholas purposely ignore me when I raise my hand. AGAIN. Many other KP stuff but I'm not going to relate to the whole world about my misfortune. Just my luck to have made enemies with him. Pffft. @ English. uhh, I forgot what happened, but it was funny. (Marvin kept goping my grape mentos, cause he said it was damn nice. 'v' ) @ Literature. Idk why, I was rather pissed off during this lesson. And then Ming Ee has to just start being irritating and pass notes to Rannald Sim. I was seriously pissed off, for no reason. Stupid mood. @ Robotics. Went there, had some kinda meeting. Then Extra arrived. The holy arrival and start of my misery. (Y) 'kkays, nothng interesting. Except that I uncovered some bad news ( to me ). Sigh.

And so I realized ; Being friendly is also a bad thing.

Sometimes, she can't help but just stop and think.

Is he worth my tears?

They say that the person who makes you cry ain't worth it, and the one who is won't make you cry. How can she trust that when there are so many cases of broken hearts that can never heal? To her, love ain't a game. Everyone says that love hurts. But she thinks otherwise. Loneliness; Rejection; Losing someone hurts. In reality, she knows that L-O-V-E is the only thing in the whole wide world that can cover up all the pain and broken cracks, and make her feel wonderful again. But after he appeared in her life and turned things upside down, she ain't sure anymore.
How can she, when he's perfect for her, yet unsuitable at the same time?

They say, follow your heart. What happens when both your heart and mind is against each other and their arguements make total sense to you? So sometimes, following your heart ain't the right choice always. There's always bound to be obstacles.

But she, she chose to follow her heart.

And see what happened to her now.

Dear Diary;

So what if I had make the choice of facing up?

Is there any difference between us compared to the past? No. Are there any improvements? No. Do we talk? No. Sure, we had fun. But besides that, did we even communicate? Nah. The answer? No.

Okay, so tell me what's the use of facing up to my problems when even facing up doesn't help solve the problem. What's the difference then?

I've heard a lot about you, I've seen much of you. But I don't know which is the real you. How can you be one person, with three different characters at the same time? So you claim 'that', but was 'that' just an excuse to avoid a face-to-face confrontation with me? I realized we were closer previously. When I would see you and talk to you, instead of now.

OhMyGod.